November 5th, 2004

sga - sparktober

the unrelenting march of gleee!

So... um... wow. This joy sadhana thing is spreading. I can't even tell you how amazing gleeeful this makes me. On livejournal a bunch of folk have started and want to start doing it, and someone my mom told about it at work is now telling her friends about it. SO COOL!!

So much yay! I love reading other people's random gleee, and now there is MORE of it!!

And... okay, I don't actually care if this comes across sounding ridiculous :). (I don't mean it as grand or vain, though, because this all really isn't my idea). Anyway, this is totally casting a new light on this stretch of my life when I'm sick and unable to really be A Productive Member Of Society (tm).

Because, in a little way in the large-scale-of-things and a big way in my personal scale-of-things, I feel like I'm doing something, like I am still worth it. "My Life" is on hold, but the *important* part of my life and how I am in it actually isn't. When we used to talk about dharma, I always felt like mine was about spreading joy. I wanted (and want) every day to have made someone's life a little bit better than it would have been if I wasn't in it.

And this makes me feel like I'm doing that joy-spreading what-I-want-to-do-to-give-myself-meaning thing, and that's been kind of blowing my mind all day.

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  • Current Music
    that... er... vienna teng song with the storm.
sga - sparktober

Insane Mad Road Trip Of Squeee!

The Evil Mono Of Doom has apparently killed enough of my brain cells to make me crazy, because, while still sick, I am planning an insane road trip of squeee to commence next weekend. Wooo!

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So YAY!! Let me know if you live anywhere near these places and want to see my rolling caravan of gleee.

-- Little Red, so very crazy, so very excited.
  • Current Music
    "Open Road" - Kris Delmhorst