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27 June 2012 @ 12:43 am
A decade of...  
It's my 30th birthday! 30th!

I was riding the train home today and suddenly realized, Wow. This is my last night to be 29. This is my last night in my twenties! and quickly went, as you do, holy crap! Should I do something? Did I turn in all my assignments? Did I infuse enough AWESOME into my twenties to justify an ENTIRE DECADE?

(Let's leave aside for the time being the part where, as Julian Crankypants Bashir once said, "In many human cultures, the 30th birthday is seen as the end of youth and the beginning of the slow march into middle age," because I'm getting to that. I'll start atrophying for you in a sec. For now, TWENTIES HOLY CRAP.)

And then I decided yes, yes I did infuse enough awesome into my twenties. My twenties were chock full of me awesoming all over my little corner of planet Earth (my corner being a ten-foot radius around me at all times, plus anywhere "mylittleredgirl" can be found by Google). Let me think aloud about this at you for a moment! Since turning 20, I have:

  • Made a lot of new friends, including almost all of you reading this! I didn't know you 10 years ago. You'd never heard of me! I'd never heard of you! Isn't that nuts?

  • I've also had the awesome experience of watching the friends I made before that grow up into amazing adult people (all my King House pi-frenz and Kripalu kids, you know who you are). I mean, pi! Weddings, babies (well, baby + 1 on the way since Htebazile seems to have that covered for us so far unless you people are keeping secrets from me because it takes a long time to knit a starfleet academy layette you know, just saying), professorships, houses... I mean, NPR calls (some of) us up as experts! (WHAT IS THE WORLD COMING TO WE USED TO HAVE TO HAVE HOUSE MEETINGS ABOUT HOW TO FLUSH TOILETS OH MY GOD AND THESE PEOPLE ARE COUNTING ON OUR GENERATION NOW.)

  • I got a career! I left school, I moved across the country to a city I'd basically never been to before, and I busted out a life where I make money and have an apartment and don't have 30 pet rats anymore and it looks like a self-sufficient adult lives here (who maybe also runs an in-house daycare that requires bins and bins and BINS of craft supplies, but I qualify adulthood on a sliding scale). I made life decisions feeling like I was barely staying in front of a moving train and now I make life decisions from the chill awesome comfort of my own damn couch!

  • I lost a beloved dog. I gained another beloved dog.

  • I went to one sister's wedding and will go to the other's this summer. (I'm cool with that, sisters. Get married all you want. Just chill out on the babies until I can take a few deep breaths about not doing that first so I can figure out how the baby-raising works for you because I feel like I'm letting you down in my big sisterly duties!)

  • I had quite a health experience, I guess you could say: This time 10 years ago I had mono. Real mono. First mono, before it mutated into that other batshit suck-your-life-for-years-rawrrr-ness. Then there was what we're now calling bipolar disorder but unmedicated felt just like BATSHIT CRAZY. Then I fixed it. All of it. I learned my body and mind inside and out. (And it's like Microsoft - just because it's fixed doesn't mean there aren't 36 more updates next Monday you need to download and apply and goddamn it now nothing works where the hell are the printers oh for fuck's sake let's reboot again because health, especially mental health, is like that.)

  • I learned about love, and about what isn't love, and how there is considerable overlap where things are both love and not something you want, and I took a few mental notes on how to enjoy the first kind while you have it and move past the other two, and hopefully I'll remember one or two of those lessons in the future. (I was fixing a powerpoint for someone in another department today and she called the key points "learnings" - I think my lolcats have been affecting our company grammar.)

  • I grew up. (For those keeping track at home, I think the real tipping-point age between kid and adult was 26, but 29 has been the year when I really chilled out about it.)

And before my 20s I'd never been in fandom or posted fanfic before. Yep.

I bolded that because it's of interest to most of you, and also because havocthecat said A Decade Of Fandom would be a good post title (and perhaps a better post! But it's my birthday so you can't complain to my face about it!).

(First online fandom: X-Files Season 9, discovered around my 20th birthday. This was my first posted fic, if you're curious - I'm pretty sure you'd all recognize it as mine in a fic pepsi challenge. Then SG-1, which brought me to LJ and all these great writers we had in that fandom. Then Atlantis, and eventually seeing the way my writing was influencing other people. It's the FANFIC CIRCLE OF LIFE over here and it's magical. Doesn't it make us all feel really important to put it that way?)

Okay, so, the part where Julian Bashir thinks I'm basically dead: he changes his tune by the end of the episode so I'm not too worried about it. Also most of the cool people I know got to 30 before me so it automatically MAKES ME COOLER! It's SCIENCE.

And to the people in my office who keep saying I'm "turning 29, again!" ... no, thanks. I think I did it well enough the first time. :)
Rose Wilde-Irishrosewildeirish on June 27th, 2012 10:47 am (UTC)

And to the people in my office who keep saying I'm "turning 29, again!" ... no, thanks. I think I did it well enough the first time. :)

You? Are awesome. :D

Maybe 30s is where we create the Craft Empornium.
Icepixie: [DS9] Julian and Jadzia in a turbolifticepixie on June 27th, 2012 11:57 am (UTC)
Yay for getting older and cooler! Even though you're already cool! :D
Kim's Watermelon Gunkeenween on June 27th, 2012 12:59 pm (UTC)

Yay Happy Birthday GLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE Party! Perhaps I should go EXTREME bowling in your honor!
-a.frog/gorf.a-froggoddess on June 28th, 2012 02:42 am (UTC)

redbeardredbeard on June 28th, 2012 03:54 pm (UTC)
Seriously, I read this and thought "OMG YOU ARE RIGHT!!! We are so screwed! HA!"

Love it.

Much GLEE on your 30th, hon! And here's to an awesome future! And more Pi babies (ha!)
Fallon Ash: annabeth2fallon_ash on June 27th, 2012 01:29 pm (UTC)
*hugs*!!! and congratulations!!! You rock!
spacefiendspacefiend on June 27th, 2012 02:20 pm (UTC)
Happy Birthday!!!!!!
pellucid: Kira/Odo dancepellucid on June 27th, 2012 03:24 pm (UTC)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think the 30s are awesome (so far, anyway!).

It's crazy to think that I've known you for most of that time, and I think it's so cool to see where your 20s have taken you. You've walked a difficult road with more grace and humor than most people would have been able to do! *many, many hugs*
A.j.: happyaj on June 27th, 2012 03:48 pm (UTC)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! (It snuck up on me. I DID NOT KNOW TODAY WAS THE 27th!)

georgie: Shaun - you've got red on yougeorgierae on June 27th, 2012 04:09 pm (UTC)
I know I left a brief message on fb, but HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Really hope you have an AWESOME year :)
Clydesuzvoy on June 27th, 2012 04:09 pm (UTC)
Happy Birthday, Oh Awesome One :D
stexgirl2000stexgirl2000 on June 27th, 2012 04:23 pm (UTC)
Happy Birthday! :hugs you:

I hope you have some awesome cake today!
Jo. R: SGA SW TRW love youdriftingatdusk on June 27th, 2012 05:10 pm (UTC)
Have a happy and awesome 30th birthday!! Your post made me smile lots, partly because in just under a year I'll be where you are and only hope I can be a positive and inspiring as you!

Lanna: Trek Girls Kickasslanna_kitty on June 27th, 2012 06:01 pm (UTC)
*huge hugs* Happy Birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dark_cygnetdark_cygnet on June 27th, 2012 06:27 pm (UTC)
Happy birthday, darling girl! I am so glad you are on my flist. I hope your day is filled with laughter, light and loved ones. Paint the town Elizabeth Red! ::swansmooches::
entertaining in a disturbing way: Shelly is happy with gleeeelyssie on June 27th, 2012 08:06 pm (UTC)
Eeee! Happy birthday! You are amazing, and, no, being thirty does not suck. Silly people in your office. =D
Your *Mom*'s A Cylon!: Not a Quiet Person (by featherjean)astrum_presul on June 27th, 2012 09:17 pm (UTC)
Happy Birthday, m'dear! You are one of the coolest people I know, so I would say you've made a decade proud.


Have a fantastic day, love.
anranr on June 28th, 2012 01:06 am (UTC)
Happy happy birthday! Hugs to follow next week, in person. :)
fyca: DRR giddy lovefyca on June 28th, 2012 01:29 am (UTC)
Ack! I sometimes have a hard time when I realize it's been about a decade since I met you (russiandeptwench!), fa, Mellie, Caro, Gril, Cor, and a million other people on the SA forum. Those were the days! And we were all so young! SOOO YOUNG! Where did my youth go??

AND PERMANENCE! My bday fic (kinda!)! I had to go skim that real quick for the rush. You're amazing, you know? I'm pretty sure I've been telling you that for 10 years now. And I'm looking forward to continuing to tell you that for the next 10. As you said to me 10 years ago, Happy birthday, baby!
Human Collaborator Flunkie Pool!fic Muse: Weir - Good dayjoyfulfeather on June 28th, 2012 02:35 am (UTC)

God, you're awesome.

Ryuu: MLP - PinkiePieHappykarma_aster on June 28th, 2012 02:52 am (UTC)
One of us! One of us!

I will attempt to create some coherent greeting later when I feel less queasy and tired, but here's hoping it's an awesome birthday, nonetheless.
Ridiculously Fanaticnel_ani on June 29th, 2012 09:17 am (UTC)
Belated happy birthday! *hugs*

And rock on in the thirties. :)
lavidaessueno on June 29th, 2012 06:10 pm (UTC)
Happy, happy, happy birthday. And for what it's worth: 30s? So much better than 20s. Really.