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28 October 2004 @ 03:56 pm
I really *am* a fucking Pollyanna.  
*amused*

I totally thought my dad was exaggerating. No *wonder* people think I am unhinged from reality and are occasionally annoyed. (And probably also why I can get *so* overwhelmed in the face of bouts of non-squeeeful emotions -- so perhaps a bit of a night-and-day pollyanna)

Mumsey and I are, like the wenches we are, gossipping about co-workers who are all "Life is awful and will never get any better so why do I even TRY" and very negative about some of the recent changes at work.

Me: "But it's easy for me to be so positive, because so much good stuff is always happening to me."

Mumsey: "You know, some people might having a debilitating illness overrun your life for two and a half years to be something negative."

Me: "... I hadn't thought of that."

*feels vaguely ridiculous*

I blame the asthma drugs. Aerosol gleee!

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p.s. The bostonglobe.com headline today is just YES!!!. I find it wonderful that even the reporters couldn't come up with something more coherent to say :)
 
 
 
Ari (creature of dust, child of God): Red Sox 2: World Series victory!wisdomeagle on October 28th, 2004 08:16 pm (UTC)
p.s. The bostonglobe.com headline today is just YES!!!. I find it wonderful that even the reporters couldn't come up with something more coherent to say :)

:D
MegTDJ: Michael Too Cute - jolinar_x_iconsmeg_tdj on October 28th, 2004 08:36 pm (UTC)
*blink* How is that ridiculous? It's something to be proud of if you live through hardship and still see the bright side of things. And good stuff IS always happening to you. Good stuff happens to everyone, it's just that most people are so blinded by the bad stuff they don't even notice it. :)
Little Red: scully good day - Carolinamylittleredgirl on October 29th, 2004 03:55 am (UTC)
YAY!! Exactly. That's *totally* the way I see it -- we get to choose what we dwell on, and sometimes it just doesn't serve us to dwell on the bad stuff. Dealing with it, that's necessary. But dwelling... eh. And there is so much gleee to be had!

Sometimes people tell me this means I'm living in a "fantasy-world" and that I "can't cope with reality". But I am having way more fun than they are ;) (and, oddly, happen to think I am rather sane, so there.)
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One Whose Honesty is Stronger Than Her Fear: cuteamilyn on October 28th, 2004 10:09 pm (UTC)
You are, indeed, Pollyanna.

You'll have to read the book.

I'd send you one if only I had your snail addy. Look here: you can get a copy for $0.75 plus postage: http://half.ebay.com/cat/buy/prod.cgi?cpid=48943&domain_id=1856&meta_id=1
Little Red: gleee! - nenyamylittleredgirl on October 29th, 2004 04:03 am (UTC)
Ooooh! Thank you! :) I will have to get myself an ebay name or borrow my dad's and purchase.

And it could even be a gateway drug back into reading books for me... (I think the mono and the evilness that is higher education killed my desire to EVER READ ANYTHING AGAIN)... but this will probably be the PERFECT reading level! Yay!
jammer0307jammer0307 on October 28th, 2004 11:04 pm (UTC)
You are unhinged from reality. That's what we love about you. Besides, your insights into reality are awesome.

*hugs*

J
Little Red: p/c First Contact - afterglowmylittleredgirl on October 29th, 2004 04:03 am (UTC)
*heeee*

Er. Yes.
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KarenDreamerLadykarendreamer on October 28th, 2004 11:22 pm (UTC)
First, YAY! for Boston. I'm so happy for you Red, you've been a loyal fan. This is a great reward.

Second, you're not a Pollyanna. I've found that people who have had very difficult challenges, physical and/or emotional, have a very different attitude about complaining. When you've survived what you've been through for that last two years the little annoyances of life just don't hit as hard. I've been through some major challenges in life, and am thrilled to have come out for the better on the other side. While rude drivers, obnoxious sales clerks, etc., do annoy me, they are minor because I'm happy to have the life I have now.

I think you are in the same place. You're getting stronger and life is getting better, so you know it is all worth fighting for. The negative ones have no idea how bad it can get.

There, was that dramatic enough? :) Sorry for being so wordy, but I adore you and am so happy that things are getting better for you.

((((((((((((((((Red)))))))))))))))

Karen
Little Red: scully good day - Carolinamylittleredgirl on October 29th, 2004 04:08 am (UTC)
I'm so happy for you Red, you've been a loyal fan. This is a great reward.

GLEEEEE yay!! I mean, I was ecstatic when the Pats won the Superbowl... but this is SO MUCH BETTER because I have cared and followed them so closely even for just the past few years. It's mostly incredible because of the huge sense of community and wonder, knowing how many people there are who just wanted to see ONE before they die... so incredible.

When you've survived what you've been through for that last two years the little annoyances of life just don't hit as hard.

Wow. I really never thought of it that way, but that makes a lot of sense. I'm also fortunate to be naturally pretty optimistic -- according to my parents I came this way!

Awww. *loves you so much* This is NOT wordy -- I am totally known for the longest comments EVER. And this was really great to hear and phrased so well!! You're so great!
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Malinnemalinne on October 28th, 2004 11:29 pm (UTC)
Very impressed by the Red Sox!! My homeboys couldn't do squat...but boy! The Sox sure could. They DESERVED that win!! The played beautifully! Congrats!!!
Little Red: msr baseball - Carolinamylittleredgirl on October 29th, 2004 04:13 am (UTC)
Thank you!!!

I rooted for the Cards in the national league alongside the Cubs all year. (Red Sox fans I think have to root for the Cubs out of solidarity). And... just... wow, they were so incredible all year. I was so, so impressed by the fans and the players this year and during this series. St. Louis also looked really pretty, and I've added it to my list of places to investigate for where I might want to live next!! (Is it bad that having a good sports fandom seems to be a requirement for where I live? I would feel so WEIRD to be in a place that didn't go bonkers about at least one sport after living in New England! Where's the sense of community, then?)

But the Cards fans seem really special -- they have a knowledge of the game like Sox fans do (which is oddly rare, I have heard), but are a lot more sportsman-y. I love love love the fanaticism of the Sox fandom, but I respect the Cards fans a lot, and plan to moonlight as one in future seasons! :) (national league ball is also so fun to watch, too!)
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Human Collaborator Flunkie Pool!fic Musejoyfulfeather on October 28th, 2004 11:48 pm (UTC)
Ya know, she has a point. But it's good not to get dragged into a pit of negativity! Yay!

I find it wonderful that even the reporters couldn't come up with something more coherent to say :)

HA! Who needs coherency? That says it all!
Little Red: scully good day - Carolinamylittleredgirl on October 29th, 2004 04:15 am (UTC)
Yay!!! My parents and I had an awesome post-work conversation tonight about Psychology and Trauma and The Way People Are In The World, and it was pretty neat. I used to think I had a real affinity for drama -- that I made stuff into bigger deals than it was and really reveled in it -- but both of them said they think I have changed since I left school. My life is just way more enjoyable now! ;) And it's nice to have an external compass tell me these things...
redbeardredbeard on October 29th, 2004 12:02 am (UTC)
I think this is why we get along so well - I remember that my impression of being in the hospital after the tree fell on me was "Yay! I get fun drugs to make me feel wacky!"

Granted, there was that whole almost dying thing, but pshaw, the legal usage of heavy drugs was well worth it! And the constant attention from all sorts of folk. Not to mention the wonders it did for the shape of my legs. Or so I was told multiple times. Really odd.
Little Red: scully good day - Carolinamylittleredgirl on October 29th, 2004 04:17 am (UTC)
Yes!! We get along so fabulously YAY :) Gleeeful travelers ;)

And *almost* dying is different than *dying*. Because with *almost*-death, you get to take away from it all sorts of new perspectives, and that is COOL! I mean, scary, but that kind of scary is also a new experience.

And the fun drugs.
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Little Red: sox - eclipse 2004 - dantesdadmylittleredgirl on October 29th, 2004 04:18 am (UTC)
It would be incredible to get all the front pages and make a mural somewhere.

My dad bought me a Boston Globe, and told me I HAVE to keep it my whole life because this is a historical event and my kids will want to see it ;) YAY!
maching_monkey on October 29th, 2004 06:06 am (UTC)
Well, ya know, Red? How blessed are you to be able to find such joy in life despite such an illness?

How wonderful--may you always have such happiness.


Leah
Jeff's LiveJournaljfpbookworm on October 29th, 2004 01:26 pm (UTC)
"How hard is it just to decide to be in a good mood, and then be in a good mood?" - Say Anything

I firmly believe that, aside from cases of chemical imbalances or other neural misfiring, we can create our own glee or misery.

Congratulations on choosing the former.